ok as you all surely have noticed -or not-,
I am not really as active as I normally am...
and well my inbox is kind of flooding atm,
I mean 130 msg and 104 devs to watch,
I am so sorry that I am not replying and such...
I currently have exams -they start tomorrow-
and well I am quite terrified,
as there is a sh*tload of oral exams, and I tend to lose my words all the time whenever I try to explain something -.-
but well, I will be back the 22nd of this month, after some parties etc
yay for celebrating the end of the school year.
I am quite curious how my inbox will look by then,
but I will take one day that week to reply to all, thank people etc etc
I simply hope I won't get sick of it and press coincidentally the 'remove all' button...
merely coincidentally... lol

wish me luck, I'll probably take a peek next week Saturday or something like that =]
ttyl

x

so we have a couple of days free and as I am pretty occupied these days
I won't be able to respond to every question, comment, ... x]
but well I actually just wanted to say that trees can be such a a pain >.<
really I am working on this photomanipulation
and well I need to cut out this big old tree...
but well it's such a pain to cut out all those branches
why don't trees take in account that photomanipulators have a hard time with those tiny branches
lol, well maybe it's my own fault though... I just wanted to have that tree
but well, the background is filled with other trees and even more branches
which makes it more difficult to distinguish the branches I want from the useless ones >.<
-secretly I am ignoring a few branches anyway -
so far for my tree/branch- rant x]

how are you guys? x
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edit: OMG... I found out -well yes, just now- that someone has actually bought one of my prints...
*hyper hyper* yay I've made EUR 0,25 -I think- with a photo of mine x] lolz
I am actually really content about it ^^

I suppose this is my breaking point
I have been keeping my head up high,
I have been joking around, being all jolly, happy, crazy
and cheering up people who felt down themselves.
and though they have understandable, grave reasons
I am through with being that happy and smiling for everyone that needs me.
I am damn pissed that I have no camera at all
and even more pissed off with the fact that I won't be able to take a photo for the next two months
god knows -if I make it till then-, I will buy a crappy ass camera, just to fill up the emptiness
my old camera left.
I know it is pathetic that I am feeling depressed over a piece of machinery, but really
I am going mental without some equipment to take pictures.
I am sick of seeing things I would have taken a picture of, if I had a camera
I really feel like crying.
yeah, I have loads of stuff to be grateful of; good health, great friends, a proper education, food, loving parents, a house, clothes, ...
and still I am feeling sad about something that has no value for so many.

I thought that filling up my creativity-time with manipulations would work, but I need to take certain stockphotos of my own, for making exactly what I want.
and as you all know by now, I won't have one any time soon.
friends have actually offered me their cameras to use, but it's different you know...
besides I'd rather die than doing that, it's all about principals.
Anyway I actually regret going to Italy, because I believe if it weren't for that trip, my camera would still be alive and kicking; how sad is that o.O

I could go on and on and on about it,
but it would be the 3rd time talking about it, and I am sure that you are all sick of it.
and please don't state you don't mind, I am not in the mood for comforting words at the moment.
you'd only piss me off more
I need time to think and figure out what I am going to do
I'd probably do anything at this moment.
so for the time being, I won't be that active.
no complaints.

as some of you know, my evil activity has been reduced by an unforeseen event...
some knights of Good -you'd expect that they should be pretty like hell (pun kind of intended, though it is lame) and they weren't even that handsome >.<- have slaughtered my camera,
although I thought they were gladiators, seeing it happened near the Colosseum,
but fear not my evil followers,
there is still hope -can I actually use that term, in my evil being,
though despair is not really the correct term for this situation either... hmmm-
the people who raise me -also called parents- and I are working on a solution
-a 1MP better solution to be precise-
Until the time that my evil equipment will be replaced or restored,
I won't be silenced... no we won't give up
we will write, upload old evilness, use other's photos and put it magically together and let's call it photomanipulations,
do not despair, for I am not dead x]

ok I am done with all my evilness-talk/rant...
what's up, with my niggaaahz? -yah, I am actually the new reincarnated wiggah, lol... you'd wish-
My holiday is getting to his end, though I am begging him to stay.
Anyway, my weekend is filled up with some party, pressie shopping, youth movement thingie -not sure-, reading books, studying,...
it is likely that I won't be on that much, due to brain failure caused by a fatal headache -the 666th to be precise; gooood, I am born to be a dramaqueen with no sense of humour, at all-

what else to say? well I have been thinking about the whole 'friendship' concept and realised that I need a serious talk with some of my so called friends, though I haven't figured things out myself, I know more or less whom I can trust by now. Anyway,
this week has been rather low key, though I had a marvellous time with a new acquaintances, or let me call it a friend =] he knows himself who he is.

Also I realised that I am not caring about the whole 'labelling' thing any more. One should call me the names that one pleases. Frankly, I could not be bothered any more.
If a person thinks I am a slut, then that is what he thinks.
The same for the whole emo/scene/goth thingie. everybody has an own opinion and everybody is free to use it in every way he wants. Besides, who am I to say what someone's perspective on a term should be.
If I wouldn't be me -which I apparently am-, I would probably have the same prejudices about the person I seem to be.
Sure I can be depressed, I can be rude, have mood swings, be childish, can be serious, can be a pain in the *beep*, can think everything evolves about me... but frankly, that only indicates that I am not perfect. Because most of the times, I am hyper, really friendly, mature, a helping hand, caring, sweet, patient, and so on and so on.

So well, this is as far as I want to explain myself, I am tired and bored and doubt that anyone will even read beyond the first 5 lines or so
anyway I am going to bed, it's calling me o.O
"marischaaaa... come on, I need you"
and that's not really something I hear every day hmmmm

anyways, thank you -for those who actually read all that crap-
yours truely,
Misch
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So marischa participated some thing called The Ultimate "random deviant" Project organised by nobody less than =ehmaysink.
I guess that at some point misch is getting all social etc etc anyway
you just got randomly -hint hint- paired with others who entered the project, jsut to get to know each other, get to know other genres of art etc.

So I got paired up with the wonderful ~ikitsumidaminito
a girl with a heart for pencils and a writing talent.
be sure to check her out... nd if you do,
please tell me, I'll especially bake one hell of a tasty pixel none-existing cookie for you,
isn't that a deal

now shoo, off you go. you shouldn't even be here any longer >.<

misch is back in town...
a week went by too fast, really it did.
I have had the most beautiful week of my life -so far-.
It was relatively nice weather, lovely architecture, amazing culture and a history to die for...
Ok I spend a lot of time in the bus, and it was not always as pleasant, sure.
BUT we have made the best out of it and laughed our asses off with the most random things.

I've tasted the sweetness of culture in several cities as Florence, Rome, Venice, Verona,..
I really miss Italy and it is not only the country on its own, also the inhabitants were worth the trip.
They are friendly and are able to smile which is nearly impossible to see as tourist in Belgium =]
-intermezzo: I don't like Belgium: it's cold, expensive, unfriendly, politics suck, .... I am so going to move abroad later on in my life.-

I have taken a lot photos -what did you expect-, but well... +sniff sniff+
We need to have a minute silence for the death of my dearly beloved hubby aka my crappy camera =[
his heartbeat disappeared from the monitor Thursday, March the 27th at 1:47PM... on the way somewhere between The Forum Romanum and the Colosseum. Anyway I was able to use some of my friends' cameras (especially my bestie who insisted on taking photos).
I will upload some photos later in the week.
But the death of my camera brings up some troubles with taking planned pictures, which means that unfortunately -for me-, I won't be uploading any new photos -besides those of my trip- any time soon, or there must happen some miracle, which I don't see happening either xP

I must say that I had been having some doubts about the trip to Italy before...
but I am happy that I went through with it in the end.
I have made new friends, have learned some more about my old friends and I have spend too much money on pretty things...
BUT most importantly, I have cleared my head, I have come to peace and am ready to take a great leap into the dangerous world of love, affection and disappointment
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daily deviation
and now my BIG thanks to dear =ehmaysink for suggesting
and ^Pete-B for featuring my Having Love For Breakfast
I mean... it left me completely stunned and speechless.
I came home this afternoon, talked a lot with my parents, gave them their pressies,
got on the computer, browsed to dA and had an amazing amount of messages.
That's on hell of a way of coming home after an amazing week =]

So again I want to thank you all for the amazing amount of support aka
favs, comments, views, watchers, features,...
simply the time you guys have put in making it more than I have ever expected.
You have made my day.

more useless words later
love Misch x