Oh god, has it really been 8 months since my last journal entry? So much has happened in the meantime...
We try to avoid it, but sometimes it's inevitable and more often than not predictable. We just can't escape to say goodbye to people we care about. So after 2 good years I ended a relationship which has shaped my view on what I need from a guy. I am a creature of habit and like to settle into a situation, even when I feel miserable in it. I can't blame him, he was a kind and gentle boyfriend who had buckets of patience to spare. Maybe it's cliché to say it was all my fault, because it takes two to make a relationship work, but I couldn't make myself feel what I had felt before.
New love is on the horizon tho. It is so refreshing and I feel like an insecure teenager all over again. I won't waste too much webspace on it, because I'm selfish xD Dnno, it's such a special feeling for me that I wouldn't be able to explain if I wanted to.



my rat - I never really talked about my little critter and I've never executed the ideas I had for including him into my phtography... But my little sphynx rat passed away a few months ago. He was the sweetest and most laid back rat ever; I had him for over a year, but I didn't really know his age as I bought him on a whim; just the strangest, but cutest little rodent. I still get emotional thinking about it. He used to sleep every evening on my shoulders and nibble on one of my ears every so often. He comforted me like no human being will ever be able to.

My exams are finished already and I've been accepted to be an intern at a hospital, finally putting every bit of information I had to study, to use. So in two weeks time I'll be a 'student midwife' going from room to room making beds and checking blood pressures. It might sound silly to you, but it thrills me to think about these things. It'll prepare me to be an actual midwife and guide woman through labor. I'm psyched...

So how has life been treating you guys?




Love, Mischx